I was meditating the other day and got a very clear and (ironically) loud message from Source: “Shut the f#@k up, Amanda!”
Yes, it was a bit shocking, but such a helpful (and kind of funny) invitation. You see, I love to learn new things. You’ll often find me listening to a book about quantum reality on Audible, or a podcast about discoveries of ancient texts or new ideas about the life of Jeshua or Mother Mary. I like to learn new songs, and explore new perspectives, but the vision I got along with that very clear, and amusingly crass message from Creator was that I had been a bit of a conscious glutton.
Instead of furiously filling my body with all sorts of food, I was furiously filling my field of consciousness with all sorts of information. I wasn’t giving myself space to integrate what I was learning, but even more importantly, I wasn’t giving myself space to just be . . . with myself, and available to hear the Divine guidance that only comes from silence.
Yes, I was meditating daily (usually twice a day), but because I wasn’t giving myself any quiet time, all my meditation was doing was inadequate processing of what I had gorged on all day.
So, I made an immediate decision. I did a physical fast and only drank spring water and herbal teas, and I did a full on consciousness cleanse. No screen time, no emails, no Audible, no podcasts, not even music. No books, no entertainment whatsoever. I planned on just doing the things that needed to be done around the house, making sure I was getting exercise, and other than that, I just was. I didn’t even try to meditate more than usual.
I just sat.
I thought I would get really fidgety and restless, but I was able to just be with myself like a friend. The emotions and thoughts that had arisen from dreams and conversations and other events over the past week arose and I was able to really pay attention to my thoughts and feelings about it all. I was able to really get to know myself, and soon I noticed that nothing at all was arising.
I had given myself time to clear out the backlog of unprocessed information (thoughts, feelings, and phenomenon), and then I just sat with nothing on my mind. At times the part of me that really likes to “achieve,” and “do” would arise and suggest I get on to some project, but then I could acknowledge that part of me and let her know that she was off duty, and then I would go back into just sitting, just being.
When I did go for a walk or a bike ride, or sat down to meditate, nothing particularly profound happened during my physical and conscious fast, but I felt CLEAR. I felt more present. I felt less static in the field.
I fasted for 24 hours from food, and spent the whole weekend, from Friday afternoon until Monday morning without any mental stimulation.
When I commenced my engagement with the outside world, I found even greater intuition, better use of my time, better organization, a greater sense of peace, and made a commitment to shift some things in my life.
- When I wake up in the morning, I do not listen to anything. No music or podcasts or Audible books. I allow my thoughts to flow organically. I usually go for a morning walk and/or yoga, and often end up remembering more of my dreams during this time.
- When I find myself with a little bit of time on my hands, my default now is to just be silent. Previously, I would try to squeeze in part of a podcast or book, but now I usually just allow myself to sit and let the unprocessed thoughts arise and flow out or just be in stillness.
- I ask myself, “Do you really want to listen to/watch that, or is it just habitual?” Before filling the psychic space with something pre-recorded, I tune in to whether it would actually feel better (or do me better) to just allow silence. Many times, I end up just being with myself.
As I have expanded my consciousness and deepened my connection with Source over the past 53 years, and spent much of that overflowing half-century in spiritual leadership and psychospiritual healing roles, I have found that true happiness, fulfillment, healing, and Enlightenment are just one thing, and that one thing comes from allowing the self to be fully witnessed and allowed its full spectrum human reality to be seen, re-membered, cleaned up where it needs it, loved up where it needs it, trimmed down where it needs it, and cultivated into it’s wholeness. Whatever we leave sacred space for is filled with the Divine, and therein we simply give space for it. It is truly not doing anything. Not even meditating per se. Just listening until the small self quiets down, and the Divine Self’s vibration starts to come through.
That higher wisdom can only come from creating psychic and conscious space, free from static, so those fine frequencies can be detected.
This, I know, has and will continue to help me to truly know myself, and leave spaciousness to receive wisdom from something greater than me (or the humans who have created awesome audible delights) so that Source wisdom can flow in.
So far, it has helped me to . . .
- Feel more peaceful
- Sleep better
- Think more clearly
- Make better decisions in general
- Strengthen my intuition
- Be more present
And those are just the immediate, obvious benefits.
So, I am going to continue this practice and add consciousness cleanses to my quarterly physical/dietary cleanses. It seemed a lot more intimidating than it ended up being.
Ultimately, I realized that it is a beautifully loving way to deepen my relationship with me as well as leaving room and an embodied invitation for Spirit/Source/Creator to work with me directly.
Interested? Give it a try and let me know what you think!
Want support? Reach out and let’s talk about how I can help you to cherish and discover the treasure hidden inside silence and time with yourself.
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